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Friday, February 22, 2013

A Disturbance in the Force

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A Disturbance in the Force

Written by Steven Griggs |

“Well, the Force is what gives the Jedi his power. It’s an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us and penetrates us; it binds the galaxy together.”
Obi Wan Kenobi

I know you feel it. You know when there is something hijacking your energy, short circuiting your creativity.  When something is blocking you, almost like a force field that you can’t seem to break through.

I've been feeling it for the past week. Every time I’ve tried to sit down to write this article I felt blocked and sidetracked.

I would find myself drawn into a confusing whirlwind of feelings. A combination of melancholy, fear, frustration, anger, and it was not a good feeling.

And so I would stop, leave my computer and wait for the creative spark to show up like it always does.

But it wasn't coming.

I know why.

I've been going through many changes over these past four years. I have been shifting from being a very active investor, involved in every aspect of the real estate business- mortgage lending, foreclosure processing, developing and owning office buildings, mobile home parks and many other businesses, to being a full time writer and life coach.

I had reached the end. I no longer had the desire to do it anymore.

I've been a maniac business person since I was 18, building, buying, wheeling and dealing and I was very good at it.

But I just had to stop. And the chapter’s ending is near.

So what was happening?

There is really only one thing that can stop us and block us from staying in the flow of creativity.

And although that one thing comes in many forms and disguises, they all block you and they all cordon you off from creativity, from your force.


Fear wears many faces- worry, uncertainty, doubt, insecurity…...

It comes in all kinds of variations, fear of change, fear of failure, fear of not being perfect, fear of the unknown but it always boils down to fear

In my case, feeling melancholy is the sadness of knowing a cycle is ending. And that brings up the question of what comes next, which brings up the fear of the unknown.

Frustration and anger arises when you have regrets or guilt. I felt both. I felt I should have been able to do both things, coach and write while managing all the chaos involved in these businesses and properties.

But that is not the truth.  I couldn't and I won’t.

What is true is that I haven’t turned the corner yet, almost, but not quite….

I am still playing the role of problem solver and strategist. But the problems that need solving and the strategies I could devise have no meaning for me anymore because I no longer see myself involved in that game. And old patterns can be difficult to change.

In a past article Your Exterior vs Your Interior, I spoke of how some situations may seem very hard and difficult at the time but it may be that this is a part of the process, a step that is required in order for us to move towards our new paradigm.

So that’s what I remembered: Change is a process.

Step back when you feel blocked. Take time to reconnect with nature. Stop and go have a cup of tea. Take a long bath. Just do something to change your state.

Years ago I worked with an assistant who when she saw that I was getting stressed out,  would tell me to go for walk and let the bugs blow off.

She was right. Sometimes you need to let the bugs blow off.

I know what my new path is and although sometimes I may feel tired and discouraged, I can see that the change is coming.

I am moving towards full alignment with my passion and my purpose. 

And I can't wait.

So the lesson again is that fear and all its relatives are created in our own minds. None of it really exists, we generate it, we nourish it and we make it real, all while it eats us alive.

See fear for what it is and understand that feeling fearful is ok, we are all just humans.

But after you acknowledge that you are feeling the fear, remind yourself that you have control over your feelings. So feel it, acknowledge it, remember it’s not real, and then let it go.

Remind yourself that you will soon look back on this time and smile.

It’s not real and never was.

Focus on the next step and keep moving.